Tal and Greetings to All,

I have changed a lot in the last few months. Perhaps, more than I thought I would. I am now at the worst possible stress level I have been in years and we are on the verge of losing absolutely everything. My one and only source of sanity and savior for everything going on is my beloved girlfriend. She is my everything and the reason that I even bother to get up off my big ass every day.

We are more than 2 months behind on bills, we are two months behind on rent and we're moving. We need more than 3,000 dollars before April 30th, or just face the continual destruction of our financial situation, regardless of whatever happens. Even if I got a job tomorrow, unless that job paid more than 600 a week, it would take me over 2 months to pull us out of this shithole. I don't know what to do, I don't know what else I can do besides look for a job and its driving me insane. I had self-induced stomach flu this past weekend, my cigarette smoking is also at an all-time high.

I just need someone to help me catch up, if I can get caught up, I can get out of this and we'll be perfectly fine by the time we move to our new apartment at the end of April. It means with the lower rent, less bills and possibly a lower cost of living because we live so close to Mall of America, that we can survive just fine now, but we can't... until we find a way to get out of this lurch.

We'll see where life leads us and if anyone can help me... my mother and I would greatly appreciate it.

Thank you and love you all,

Lianna, a.k.a. lilly or safi